2001-10-29 - 6:38 p.m.
for those who werent checking out diaryland earlier this afternoon, you might have missed this entry. this is what katie had to say about me...
2001-10-29 - 1:55 p.m.
two times too many. anyone up for some more dictionary words, i hope so because your gonna get em anyway and as i see it, one of my readers in particular needs a vocabulary lesson:
confidence(con-fi-dence)(kon'fi dens)n.-A feeling of self-assurance; a feeling of trust in a person; reliance; good faith.
confidential (con-fi-den-tial)(kon;fi den;shal) adj.- Hold as a secret; having another's entrusted confidence on spoken or written matters.
confiding(con-fid-ing)(kon'fid ing)adj.-Trusting; reposing confidence; trustful. confidentiality n. confidentially adv.
read and learn. basically this person seems so gentle quiet and nice, the perfect person to tell secrets to. actually i should be thanking you, this person has helped to remind me of how people really are, and you of all people would know this quote from a radiohead song "for a minute there i lost myself" i forgot to be closed. i forgot that i cant trust just anyone. wes has really helped me learn to trust people, and now i question how good that is for me, i think i need to rebuild the wall he helped knock down. you seemed so trustworthy. i should have known from the first time to be alot more cautious when it came to you. when i tell secrets to you... i tell them in a whispering voice but then you turn around with your megaphone and let the whole world know what ive just said. sometimes i am so naive, i cant tell when people do or dont respect me... and it takes events like this to really see the truth, and believe me it is really difficult to tell the truth with you, with that facade you put up. gentle, quiet, trustworthy, patient, kind you. dont worry about me, i wont say another word about it. i will always thankyou and hold you accountable for bringing wes into my life... but dont worry about talking to me again. not another word. not another word to you. well maybe we can say hi and stuff souly for the sake of one person who is very dear to us both, so i am willing to be civil for his sake, but not another word to you... as far as "trust", and "friendship" go. so now we can all continue co-existing and you can go on letting everyone believe in their confidence (kon'fi dens) in you. i know better. but im just going to sit quiet and leave you alone. no confrontation, no conversation, no big dramatic argument... just quiet. not another word.
i saw the original draft by luck. i came back and this was tagged onto the end of it...
am i being too harsh? i feel bad for having written these things, truly i do, im hurt and im sorry.
i see we are playing victim again. you cant take words back that easily. i was wrong for running my mouth about something a few weeks ago, but i DID apologize. number two that you are referring to was not a secret to the best of my knowledge. the only thing you said was to not tell wes before you did. i casually brought it up in a conversation with someone... i didnt run to anyone. i didnt know i was doing anything wrong. i know the truth katie... you do too. the only way ill ever attempt to talk to you again is if you fess up. if i lose one of my bestfriends because of your lies... you will be dead to me. goodbye.
