2001-10-01 - 1:42 p.m.
starting over... again. no more emos... or memories... or apologies. i tend to not say what i feel because of other people. im gonna try not to do that on here. i just typed "one here." people keep dinging me and i cant keep a thought. this diary was supposed to be my "thought" diary, but im getting tired of having two diaries. i like this username better anyway. its from a cap'n jazz song for those of you whom i havent mentioned that a million times too. DING! ok... i think i need to restart my computer... its moving slooow. i need a haircut. i am really boring right now. and when i say right now i mean always. i wonder how long i will write in this diary before i start saying nonsense again. should there have been a question mark at the end of the last sentence? i really dont have anything to say and im just kinda rambling. katie is making me smile right now. i feel a little bit bad about complaining about the dinging earlier. i take it back! im getting hungry. im gonna play with my html a little later and make this pretty. brandy... iloveyou. <3
i know you get confused
but everyone goes through these trials of truth and self abuse
when youre selfless youre so hard not to adore
when you're selfish, i just love you even more
i want to help you, but youve got to say the words:
"i want to be cured."
